Sorry this is coming out so late today. I am sure I would still be sleeping right now if my son didn’t call me at 6am to tell me of a series of intense and actually disturbing dreams he had last night.
I was grateful for his call, because I had a 7am reading to do!
Waking up at 4am is my sweet spot. Gives me plenty of time to get my caffeine and nicotine flowing into my system as I connect my wiring to the upper atmosphere via writing my blog and allow my body to fully wake up before my first reading. So sleeping til 6am is like sleeping thru half my morning!! Of course, I am asleep nightly by 9pm!
Today tho, everything just seemed…. weird. I was able to chug a mug and a half of coffee before my reading, which I usually have a whole pot flowing thru my system by then… But I felt awake pretty much.
Until I connected with her, then I started to question myself. I could only see three things, all multi-colored funnels of energy inter-playing with each other. I could not find her to save my life. I could feel the energy of her reading, but it was more like in the night air and the only things barely visible were these three funnels of energy. Each one about 3 feet tall. I really assumed this was all me and I just haven’t been awake long enough in my day.
As I was really trying to “see” any other aspect of her reading I could feel this bulging energy in my forehead… which was really strange.
Now reading the last two days.. absolutely clear and intense. The feeling was like seeing in the midst of a massive light storm… imagine standing outside during a cat 4 hurricane… that is the same intensity the light is giving off in readings too! Phew.
Fortunately she is in Australia so it was 11pm for her, we rescheduled for later today in my world, which will be 7am for her tomorrow (which is still today… gotta love the time warp thing.)
I decided to take a meditation instead of writing a blog. Just to see if I can get some info on my self here.
I didn’t even have to set an agenda, the moment I closed my eyes I was standing on the edge of a bridgeway (yesterdays meditation that was shared) but it was really really weird because it was as if I was looking at everything in the pitch black night air.
I could not seem to get myself to go to the first door, which was strange in and of itself. I know that first door is my door of finances, but hanging there for 2 days now.
All of a sudden I look up, just simply trying to figure out why I can’t seem to move forward and I see the circle of doors above me. It was an intense light field up there. My first door was completely open and I could see the energy as if it was breathing… white and gold flowing in and out.
Instantly I understood what it was showing me/us… what we give out spiritually (that white energy) we attract back to us magnetically (that gold energy and for as long as we exhale of pure Light there will always be an inhale of pure magnetic attraction. When we worry, it stops that breath, that flow of energy until we allow ourselves to breath again.
I was not 100% sure I was/am really breathing!! But yet, my upper doorway show me otherwise. Go figure!
But, in the scheme of this meditation, I still feel sorta lost (in understanding) because, even tho the circle above me was completely in Light, there still was only one door that I have been working. I couldn’t even see the other doors…
So as I put my attention on where I was… this suddenly new circle of doorways I watched myself as I dove into the inner circle of energy as if I was mermaid, I started swimming right at the inner edge of these doorways in a circle as if I was a dolphin or something. Bobbing up and down I guess some sort of energy (couldn’t see what, it was dark here) as I was swimming in a circle. By the time I got to the area of doors 4 or 5 the energy just seemed to fade away and I was back on the bridgeway again. I repeated this motion several times… all with the same result.
What the hell is that about!!?? I don’t want to deal with two sets / floors of doors lol! And why am I swimming like a fish instead of standing in front of a door???
Well, what I am understanding is… that on a spiritual level (the above) all has been resolved. I understand and I actually live it. But… that below… pesky pesky below where everything is changing and accelerating… the ego aspect of myself is doing it’s job of over protection and the need to plan (which is what the ego does so well.)
Another aspect that gives way to the bi-level set of doors, I turn 50 tomorrow (did I just say that out loud!!) and start a whole brand new vibrational decade who’s them is CHANGE! Which, I do know how to swim in (hence the mermaid/dolphin aspect.)
I have a feeling that the 8th key with no instruction set will represent the full on merger of all our spiritual work/clearing/wisdom/vibrancy aligning completely and fully with our earth aspect.
This is actually really exciting and equally as frustrating too!! I just want it all to align up perfectly without so much freakin effort! If I didn’t love and value my ego so much I would just kick it to the curb! Of course that would be like standing in a pelting hail storm naked, not to wise or safe!
But I so do understand why this meditation would take til close to the equinox to fully do, at least for me!
Well, I have been writing this sharing off and on for 6 hours and I think I will leave it as it is and pick up with a fresh mind tomorrow morning.
I would love to hear how your meditations are going, especially after doing it multiple times!
I love y’all, thank you sooo much for Being a part of my life!!