I read a sign on facebook not to long ago that said something like: There are people in this world that have no idea what is going on, and they have no idea that they have no idea. These last few weeks I had seen, even within myself, how true that statement is. My god, life can be busy. Very enjoyable, very heart filling, but very very busy. It is sooooo easy to lose yourself each and every day. Most people have no idea what that even means or feels like (to really, and I mean REALLY know yourself,) especially if that (busy life) is all you know. I so have forgotten how exhausting what we call ordinary life can be.
For as much as I enjoyed my time in Virginia and Pennsylvania, and god knows I enjoyed every moment, I was not sad about coming Home. Quite the opposite really. I was missing myself! I was missing my connection to spirit, to life, to all the things most people don’t have time to connect to or find out how deeply They exist. Work and family connections seem to dominate lives. Which, on the surface, one can say that is what life is all about, and for a very long time, I surely would have agreed too. In that degree, life is a very external event, happening outside of you, all around you… but what is really happening within and what happens if that external world suddenly ceased to be? Where does one get the food of life they have depended on?
I think some part of me questioned my life in New Mexico, living far away from family. Of course, my kids are really good at reminding me how far away I live. I left everything familiar and emotionally close to me in 2010 to find myself. I think I got more than I bargained for, for which, I will be eternally grateful! I found the pureness of my soul and what it means to live life from that energetic connection.
I had to take a day to really pay attention to what my trip home (leaving Virginia and flying back to New Mexico) meant to me. It was the most unpleasant, uncomfortable trip I have ever taken. The first thing that happened, the moment we pulled up to the airport, I suddenly realized I left the keys to my car at my son’s house. Just shit! The good thing is, I keep a spare in my car at all times and I have road side assistance, so getting into my car and getting home was not going to be a problem, just the delay in time that I would actually get home. I was already arriving in New Mexico at 10pm (midnight on eastern time) and then about an hours drive home… this is wayyyyyy past my bedtime. I took this little oops with a grain of salt… and then I got on the flipping plane.
What on earth is United thinking sending their passengers on a 3.5 hour flight from Virginia to Houston on a toy plane!! Geez!! The isles only had 3 seats across…. can we say really really small plane?? It seems the less seats on a plane, the less ass and leg room one gets too. Plus, no movie! At least the trip from Houston to Albuquerque added a seat to the plane I was on, giving just a hair more ass and leg room to the trip. But even that is reflective of the life I was now leaving behind. Man we can pack so much into a day that we are really cramped in the way we live. No time or space to stretch out and expand and really savor the journey.
I had to smile so big as the locksmith popped my lock and I found my key and turned on my car, more than ready to get back to the Mesa when my car’s digital clock flashed 11:11 as I started the motor. My life, my purpose is about spiritual illumination to the 2nd power (double 11′s there,) I know that now more than I have ever known it before.
Pulling into my driveway every cell in my body was having a party. I was so happy to be Home again. I walked into my home and a peace and calm washed over me. I did everything I could to stay awake just to be in this energy again… didn’t last long, I crashed and burned!
Waking up was like someone turned on the tap and all morning long I was getting rehydrated. I couldn’t even write a blog, all I could do was feel and expand. I walked around my house over and over and over again just saying “thank you, thank you, thank you.” I was so grateful my landlady fed the birds and watered my plants. I knew the hummingbird population was already migrating to wherever they go for the winter, so it didn’t surprise me that I didn’t have any hummers at the feeder as usual in the morning… save one. He really didn’t come to eat the nectar, instead he flew around one of the feeders and then flew away. Not another hummer for the rest of the day. I almost feel like he came to say goodbye… until the next season rolls around. I still have 40 pounds of sugar… I will be ready!!
But as life has a way of doing, when one thing leaves another thing appears. Life is always making room for the next great adventure, changing the scenery and elements to accommodate and express what is coming up.
I was actually really happy to see that I was out of bird seed, I knew the birds were fed while I was gone. I was more than happy to take a trip to the local feed store to resupply their food. It seems, spirit also resupplied my own food source as I drove. I could feel myself expanding as I drove, I could hear spirits voice once again, I was seeing images once again. OMG, I Am Home!!
The burning questions in my heart about memories started to get revealed. Everything inside of us is there to make us question (eventually) all that we think we know about life. Our memories are formed by our perceptions, and change as we change our perceptions. So even our memories are not stationery, they twist and turn according to our evolutionary needs within us. Then… tricky part here… they get convoluted with memories of lives we lived in other times…. a meshing together if you will. Keep in mind, in our DNA, every memory we have ever created in any given timeline… exists. If we have a similar experience in this lifetime, we are equally bleeding thru memories of similar nature and feel from other lifetimes as if they occurred in this lifetime. I decided in that moment… I am dumping all my memories because I no longer even know what could be true for me in this lifetime. And in truth… non of it really matters in this moment.
It seems on my way home from the seed store, my dumping made room for a memory of a lifetime soooo long ago to resurface. I could see myself living here in Jemez Pueblo as a child. I was maybe 4-6 years old, Indian for sure and in love with the landscape even at that young age. I could feel the feelings of the child in that timeline as she spread her arms open wide as if to hug this land, I realized that part of me still lives here.
I watched as some aspect of my soul energy rubbed the energy of the land like moisturizer into the skin on my arms. I equally realized that my reach for life… is Here!
As I pulled back into my driveway and fed the birds I also seen another aspect of my energy field that actually took my breath away. I saw this amber energy that looked much like a torus shaped energy field, connected to the sky as well as deep into the earth right in my backyard. I may not have had a single psychic connection in my two-week vacation, but I know my own energy field when I feel it. I Am Home, in every sense of the word.
I sat on my couch and just felt the expansion within myself when I noticed something odd in the tree in the back yard. I got up and looked closer and at first I thought it was either a cat or a raccoon sitting on the limb of the tree. I grabbed my camera and went outside to take a closer look. My heart about stopped when I realized it was an owl. I asked the owl if it would let me get closer so I could take a picture of it. I slowly moved closer and he watched my every step, but didn’t flinch. I got within 10 feet of him and took a series of pictures, in awe that he was there in mid-afternoon watching me watch him. In the process, our eyes met. I swear to god he looked into my soul and I felt it… I felt it so much I started crying. I laughed to myself and said Lisa, you have been away too long!! But yet, I could not discount what I felt, even tho I have no way of putting into words what that feeling was. But, let me give you an image of the Screech Owl who came to help me thru this next phase of my life/souls journey:
I thanked him once again and went back into the house to ponder and look up the significance of owl as a totem. Out of the clear blue, my bath tub started to beckon to me, something I have not felt in a long time and was so happy to feel once again. The owl took on a voice even as my bath was running. He said he has arrived as a guardian and teacher to my next phase of evolution. I don’t know if I was more excited that I have a new totem/teacher or that there was a next phase of evolution… or both!! But man I was/am excited!!
As I got into my bath I suppose I didn’t anticipate what was about to be shared. It was all about the equinox, the last quarter of this year and the advancement into 2013. I pray I can put this into words and there is no doubt in my heart that the readings in the days and weeks to come, will fill in a lot of blanks as well. Here is what I am now understanding:
We are already in the back flow of energy that will be a major catalyst to so many new beginnings for all of us, all of earth. All that we have focused on, put our energy towards from the solar eclipse (May 20th, 2012) to the Equinox (September 22nd, 2012) has served a two-fold purpose; to clear out all the old debris (for those who allowed the clearing to take place) and embed all the new enhanced energy to flood in. (For those who choose to ignore the inner work, things will intensify thru this last quarter, please choose wisely where you put your energy and attention.)
Usually there is three days coming and three days going and our body’s are rocked with the intensity of the shift of energy…. this moment in time is soooooo big that it has been a week coming and will be a week going for the full affect to integrate and become fully tangible for application (that should take us to the 28th or 29th).
What I was shown for this current moment in time was like a super geyser flowing form the earth in amber colored energy going up about 10 feet into the air (again, going to scale of my own inner vision field.) I understood this to mean a rapid acceleration of our vibratory field of life. Faster and quicker than anything we have experienced to date. And then I had seen the flow of this energy go straight out across the rest of this year, with which I heard spirit say that our responsibilities with this new intense energy will be greater than ever before. Can I just say: application, application, application!!
Then we come to a massive choice point as we reach mid-December. I cannot tell you what the choices are. I am not even sure I can tell you what I understand (energetically) or how it comes about… but… let me say that by the end of the year we set sail into so many various… geez…. timelines, vibrational rates? I am not 100% sure… yet. But I had seen the energy of people scatter like roaches when you turn the light on… in every conceivable direction outwards. And then I seen the choice of taking a giant leap upwards to what I am just going to call the true and pure energy of 2013.
Now, I have been seeing the timeline of 2013 for many months now. What I do know about this timeline is that it exists (in pureness, not in simply calendar year) about 3 octaves above the timeline of 2012. It is amazingly silver with constant pulse of energy thru the first quarter (I have not really felt anything beyond the first quarter of next year… yet.)
2012 has served an ongoing choice point for all of humanity, accelerating with every choice (for better or worse.) Whatever we have created for ourselves will be ongoing thru 2015 with definitive choices that will change all matter thru the rest of this year (not a 100% sure what spirit means by that, but sure can feel the energy of it!)
From what I am understanding right now, and trust me, this is always subject to change as the information gets clearer and our timeline gets closer… but by the last week of 2012, if we have done the internal and external work needed, we will have a massive vibratory jump into what could almost seem like another world.
On my way home from Virginia, I fully realized how important my spiritual relationship with myself is. This is why I live where I live. There is no way I could possibly put in the work needed to really extract the knowledge and turn into wisdom straddling the 3D hustle and bustle world. However, I also now fully realize I live here so I can do all the work that it takes to make what we are beginning to know and make it a way of life. Like the 100 monkey theory, when one learns to do something,and helps others learn, everyone learns and has the benefit. Here is the full story about the 100th monkey effect:
The Hundredth Monkey Theory, a story about social change and evolution by Ken Keyes Jr.
The Japanese monkey, Macaca Fuscata, had been observed in the wild for a period of over 30 years. In 1952, on the island of Koshima, scientists were providing monkeys with sweet potatoes dropped in the sand. The monkey liked the taste of the raw sweet potatoes, but they found the dirt unpleasant. An 18-month-old female named Imo found she could solve the problem by washing the potatoes in a nearby stream. She taught this trick to her mother. Her playmates also learned this new way and they taught their mothers too. This cultural innovation was gradually picked up by various monkeys before the eyes of the scientists. Between 1952 and 1958 all the young monkeys learned to wash the sandy sweet potatoes to make them more palatable. Only the adults who imitated their children learned this social improvement. Other adults kept eating the dirty sweet potatoes. Something startling took place. In the autumn of 1958, a certain number of Koshima monkeys were washing sweet potatoes, the exact number is not known. Let us suppose that when the sun rose one morning there were 99 monkeys on Koshima Island who had learned to wash their sweet potatoes. Let’s further suppose that later that morning, the hundredth monkey learned to wash potatoes. By that evening almost everyone in the tribe was washing sweet potatoes before eating them. The added energy of this hundredth monkey somehow created an ideological breakthrough! But notice: A most surprising thing observed by these scientists was that the habit of washing sweet potatoes then jumped over the sea. Colonies of monkeys on other islands and the mainland troop of monkeys at Takasakiyama began washing their sweet potatoes. Thus, when a certain critical number achieves an awareness, this new awareness may be communicated from mind to mind. Although the exact number may vary, this Hundredth Monkey Phenomenon means that when only a limited number of people know of a new way, it may remain the conscious property of these people. But there is a point at which if only one more person tunes-in to a new awareness, a field is strengthened so that this awareness is picked up by almost everyone!
I promise to work overtime in learning, in applying whatever is needed and will share every step of the way! We have all gotten to Here by so many doing this inner work and sharing out loud… together, we will jump into the critical timeline of 2013 together!!
A funny little thought crossed my meditation mind yesterday. Most people take time out of their lives to go on “spiritual retreats” to remember who they are. I live my life on an ever flowing spiritual retreat and take time off to remember why.
I Am so grateful to be Home and reconnected to all the strands of Light that illuminate our way forward… YOU!!
(((((HUGZ))))) of great adventures and accelerated energy!!
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