Christian and I have been trying to conceive our second little one for nearly 18 months now. We got everything physical checked out, all good, and from there let it go to divine timing – until the timing we ‘expected’ didn’t happen as we expected it to.
I’m sure many of you can relate to the myriad of emotions that you go through when you want something that isn’t happening, if not in this particular area then perhaps with love or work or a home situation. Trust turns to frustration, anticipation strolls into despair, you talk yourself back up to trust again and basically repeat that cycle a lot!
Living in that cycle is not fun, so I did what I encourage everyone to do: I asked my energy, and our little soul yet-to-come, to show me what I needed to know. During this time, I’ve realised things I needed to see more clearly on multiple levels, cleared things I thought were long cleared and released things I didn’t even know were there!
The other day I found myself feeling such gratitude that the conception didn’t happen when we thought it would, because the not-conceiving triggered the opportunity for so much physical, emotional and energetic healing and clearing. It feels like we have been on a full circle journey. We are back now at the beginning of letting it go to divine timing if it is meant to be, but we are much transformed by the journey of this past year and a half.
So if you are waiting for something, or someone, ask: what do I need to know? Ask that question in your journal, get a healing session with a practitioner you trust, pay attention if a few people mention the same thing to you, (I kept seeing the name of a specific vitamin everywhere and it was one of the things my body needed).
Our energy has a wisdom beyond our conscious awareness. Our energy knows so much about where we are going, what we are ready for, and what more we need to know or experience before we are ready where we are not yet. A wise man on the street in India (true story!) once said to me: “If we got everything we wanted when we thought we needed it, life would have no magic, no mystery, no meaning, no purpose.”
Take some time tonight to give thanks for what is. It is all a precious part of your experience, taking you to wherever you are going.