The irony of growth is that right before a leap forward, you can often feel a heaviness or restriction. If you can imagine energy trying to expand beyond the space it has previously been confined to, before it can bust out of those walls it has to breakdown or breakthrough them.
As we find ourselves in the midst of two eclipses, you may be feeling like you are halfway between leaping free of something finally, yet full of frustration, anxiety, mood swings and heart palpitations as the old comes up to be released first – and it keeps coming, and coming and coming. And this isn’t just in the midst of any old eclipses – this is eclipses 2014 style.
We are picking up speed now in our new evolutionary cycle, and as much as you might look around and wonder if anything positive is actually going on with regards to our evolution, it’s safe to say we are not in Kansas anymore. Our inner and outer worlds are spinning, picked up by the tornado that is this evolutionary process….where it will set us down and when is anyone’s guess.
You may have experienced some restless nights and fatigue filled days lately as these latest energy waves are pushing us like never before to finally break free of yet more stuff – or more accurately at this point, finally break free of any remaining illusions that we even have stuff! In the process this energy is pushing our faces and bodies up against any remaining walls holding up our illusions.
This can feel like physical pressure coming up from within you and surrounding you, and you can often feel it around the chest area, literally like there is a tightness there. (Obviously see your health practitioner for any health concerns). Our heart, our soul, our entire energy field is expanding, and we can feel it: we feel it physically and emotionally via the parts of us that are being pushed against, being called to expand, break, collapse and transform.
Your soul is saying “Woop, I am coming up and out!!!”, meanwhile your mental and emotional defenses are on over-drive, saying “What the heck is she/he doing?????!!! Doesn’t she/he know she is going to get herself/himself killed/persecuted/killed/abandoned/fill in the blanks?” Meanwhile the soul is on a roll now, high on high-vibrations, “I’m coming out and I’m talking all your fabulous, owned and disowned aspects with me, woooohoooo, freedom and expression here we come, yee-ha!”
We have all outgrown our old versions of our selves. Hey, we’ve outgrown who we were last week, let alone old beliefs and wounds that have their roots in our childhood, in our ancestral DNA, in our collective stories and past lives. Our energy is expanding rapidly, wanting to head out into that big, open, limitless meadow where anything is possible, free of our restrictive stories.
Yet, in the process, we keep bumping up against these walls. They are thinner than they used to be, but strangely enough the frustration and emotion they trigger is tsunami-worthy, because we can see so clearly what lies beyond them! We know now that our beliefs are just tapes we choose to keep playing. We can press stop anytime. We know that our wounds are born from the way we choose to perceive something we experienced, but we can adjust our lens of perception anytime. We know that many of our emotional reactions are old habits and addictions that are holding on for dear life. We know that we no longer have to be defined by anything that doesn’t feel good, or right or true for us. We are, at this stage, a little bit like the elephants who have long outgrown their tiny chains – but after so long being chained up we haven’t quite realised just how free of our ‘stuff’ we can be if we choose it.
It is natural for all that isn’t in alignment with who we really are to come flaring up for a last hurrah as we shift up and into who we really are. The challenge is this: not to get sucked up into all that dust, believing that the existence of this dust must be evidence that nothing is changing, or that clearly you really are identified by that dust. The dust is a good sign. It’s a sign that you just smashed a big hole in some wall, or even demolished one fully. The dust is an opportunity to turn to those suffocating thoughts and emotions that have come up and say: Hey, I don’t choose you anymore…thank you for leaving now.
May many of your walls come down at this time.
May you blow the dust away with your breath. I mean that literally, just stop, inhale, exhale, let it go.
Breathe freedom in and out of your heart and chest. Feel that area opening and expanding.
Repeat if you resonate: I am free now on all levels, physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, cellular, DNA, ancestral and etheric, across all time, space and dimensions. Thank you.
(c) Dana Mrkich 2014