Well, these last two days I took a nose dive, a heart dive into the depths of duality. The other side of love that just hurts so much, not because something was done to you, or really has any affect on your own quality of life, but simply because you love and love with all your heart. I sat in my hurt last night and cherished the feeling, of loving someone so much you empathize with knowing their life is falling apart and all you can do is witness it and love them thru it all.
My youngest daughter (24) has made a consistent series of bad choices pretty much since her senior year in high school and started to develop a rap sheet a mile long now, not once did it deter her from making the same choices, doing the same exact thing that she was arrested or ticketed for in the past. Of course, when I look back on my own life, pre-bathtub era, (smile,) I have had my own similar patterns. I never did anything illegal, just self destructive. Continue reading